YOU ME AT SIX (ROUND 1 +2)

THIS IS SOMETHING I WANTED TO POST FOR SO LONG, I'VE WAITED FOR THIS MOMENT FOR OVER 9 FUCKING YEARS, MY HEART STILL SCREAMS AFTER BOTH ROUND ONE AND TWO.

I apologise for that cap lock explosion, fuck it - I don't. You Me At Six has been one of my favourite bands for about 9 years now and they have always maintained the top 3 spots. 

The fact that I was able to see them twice in a span of 2 months amazes me.

 Seeing the life for the first time with Emily who has also been a fan for 9-10 years and finally seeing them together was a fucking honour. The concert was on the over side of London to where I live and a 50 min overground ride but honestly it was worth every second of excitement before and post tears . The first show we went to was the O2 Shepherd's Bush Empire on the 24th of October. I was like a coming back tour as they played mostly old albums classic and honestly for someone who has never seen them live before, it was a pleasure to listen to the whole set list, it was pretty perfect actually.

As for the show, they are the kind of artist that are even better than their albums. I was a very emotional girl at the show for sure, all was fun and good people where a tiny bit aggressive but it's a concert so didn't expect any less. I cried during 'no one does it better' and then SOBBED during 'room to breathe' like i'm talking blurry eyes did't see anything. I guess both songs if I look at the lyrics connect to me on a deeper level so it was something else to see them live for sure.

Round 2 was a Dr Martens show at Dingwell, Camden on the 26th November. This was a much smaller shower with a capacity of about 300 people. The show happened in like a comedy venue so it was a very compact venue. To be honest, I did prefer the shepherd bush show just because it was a very unorganised method. The show was postponed an hour then given on the ticket and it being November you can just imagine how aggravated the crowd was getting. My feet honestly went numb in the 9 degrees.

 Beside all the security and entry dilemmas the show was as expected amazing. You Me At Six just doesn't ever really fail. I cried during their new song 'give' and 'no one does it better' as you do.

Highly suggest seeing them no matter how big or small of a fan you are. I am happy to say that a few more rounds are considered in 2017 which I am very much looking forward to :-)

hope you had/have a beautiful magical day xxx 

ps: Apologise ya girl has been horrible at posting due to some stuff in the background that has left me a little blue. I am drafting posts or planning all the ones I need to write so 2017 doesn't follow the pattern of inconsistent post,  I'll post at least once a week and leave requests if anything xx 

SOME GOOD SHIT spotify playlist :-)

Hello peeps of the good internet,

I've  been really into making playlist so I made the master of all master playlist; I am pretty proud of it if I may say so myself. So if you ever wonder what are the songs that play in the background of my life almost like a movie. Note that my music taste isn't very popular like it's nothing you would hear on the popular radio stations- it ranges from punk to rock to metal to melodic hardcore. 

but here is the link 

side note: I apologise for the lack of posts i've just been busy with both work at a cafe (christmas time being beyond busy with reservations) and my internship where i've been editing lots of concert footage for a deadline soon. In addition to that: shit happens and left me a little under the weather as any human does, but I will catch up with you shortly I promise xxx 

Darling// Casey (OOTD + small update)

Location of pictures Shoreditch, London.

Before you do anything listen to the song Darling by Casey, their new album is beautiful.

Hey people of the world,

These pictures are from the beginning of September and I really like them and I though someone may get some inspiration from the Outfit of the Day, maybe not the people in Europe since October brought the wind and mixed weather of Autumn. I definitely however think you can transition it into autumn very easily by adding some tight and maybe a long thin black coat to shield you from the wind. I'm considering doing like a OOTW video on my youtube soon so you can get more of a look into my style. I can enver bullet point my style very well but I've been very into the retro inspired looks and all the 90's style incorporation that was re-introduced late 2015. 

Note that this picture was taken in August, but I really enjoy it. To transition this look into an autumn outfit, i'd put on some fishnets under the aline skirt and throw on a long black coat if very chilly or a oversized bomber jacket with a hoodie under it for some layers. You can never go wrong combining any form of jeans and stripes, it's always a win win.

//shirt: pull and bear // skirt: vintage // combat boots: newlook//chocker: etsy//

As for a little life update: I'm trying my best to sort of maintain everything. Right now, i'm doing a little of everything when it comes to the gap year. I am attempting to sort of raise as much money for later months of the gap year. A few travels on the horizon and at the same time trying to get myself into university after the this year is complete, which means the process has to happen now. Those have honestly been my two greatest focuses for now. With a few  projects under my sleeve, still in the planning process of course. My only dilemma is that my fatigued. I've always been tired and maybe a reasons is a iron deficiency which is common in most females. But still after taking care of it I'm still not energetic about anything but sleeping and pokemon. I guess a small part is inspiration and motivation and it being autumn and winter it's not the greatest for me personally. I've always been a summer based baby,  feeling attracted to sun kissed skin, oceans and sunflowers.

If you have any posts or video you'd like to see if a ya gal a boost as that would be v helpful xx 

I hope you have/had a lovely day and I'll be back very soon :-)

Concert: Of Mice & Men + Special Guests @ O2 Forum.

(this post is way over fucking due)

On the 7th of October, I was able to see a line up of 3 bands that I genially like. 

My cousin flew all the way from Poland for the weekend to see the line up so the company was definitely lovely. But she flew in the night before and with the luck we have the flight was delayed by 45min which had a domino effect on her coach ride into London.leaving me picking her up at 2am and leaving us in bed at 3am after a double shift of 10 hours at work. 

We were at the venue by 15:00 which got us just in line for at least 1-3 row which in the end of the day was worth it no matter how cold we got by 19:00.  

The opening act was Hands Like Houses. Fuck these guys were awesome, sort of wish the crowd interacted more with them because I've listened to them for over 8 months and it just felt like my cousin and I were doing the jumping.I highly recommend giving them a listen , my favorite song off the first album is "oceandust" and "glasshouses" off the second album :-)

Next was Crown the Empire, sadly one of the members David was not on the stage. I never ended up finding what happened. Since David was the 'scream', my favourite song Zero had less power to it but definitely worth seeing them and planning to see them again in the future.

AND FINALLY, the main act which was Of Mice & Men at first I preferred they're old stuff just because it was a lil more mellow than what I am used to by them but surprisingly it was not mellow at all live like that was some good good shit :-) The crowd luckily woke up for their set and mosh pits awoke, everyone was having fun and I finally so smiles in the audience venue.

If you ever get the chance to see them and your into harder rock music i highly suggest all of them. I just heard that the tour had to be cancelled due to Austin health which is a shame but Austin did actually look a little under the weather if I say so I hope him the best of recovery.

hope everyone has a / had a lovely day and i'm gonna flood you with posts this week simply because I know they are a little overdue :-)

Meeting a Internet Friends :-)

Hello peeps, 

So yesterday I met up with an internet friend of mine from Amsterdam.

Our friendship began by her finding me on twitter identifying with us having the same name. Which for someone who has a very old latin name is very uncommon like nobody has barely ever heard it never the less find someone with the same one. We have different spelling of course since mine originate from Poland and hers from Lithuania.

It was super cool to meet up with her since we have actually talked together for a year and a bit. I was able to show her one of my favourite part of London which is Shoreditch. We explored the Sunday market and I drolled at all the vintage clothes that I was resisting to buy. I definitely had a lot of fun and encourage for people to try to make as much friends online as it's not as bad as all those creepy stories. Definitely be cautious though by asking them to webcam/facetime/skype you. 

 I've been feeling really sluggish recently and I'm actually considering to go back to the market place another Sunday and buy myself several juices and do those juice cleanses for the day to flush out the toxins but god knows when I'll get another Sunday off.

 As for what's happening next. We are planning to change the table's around and for me to visit her in Amsterdam in 2017 and to stay at hers for a few days letting me explore Amsterdam since I've never been. It sort of makes me really happy because I really like taking pictures and making travel videos so it's definitely something I'm looking forward too.

As for my plans for Monday, I have work at 19:00 which means I'm gonna go take a small nap and maybe if I have enough time start watching some films that I feel would be useful to have knowledge of when I start University next year.  I hope you have/had a lovely day and Ill talk again soon.

PS: give me a shout of any blog posts or videos you'd like to see from me as right now I'm wondering a little with these blog posts as I'm sort of planning both the gap year blog post and a few others.

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18 things I've learrnt at 18.

 Hello ello, so on the 17/09/2016 I offically turned 19.

I will be honest 18 was not a good slice of pie and it was a little bitter if I say so myself. Even though 18 is famous for doing stuff legally instead of 'in the bush' it wasn't much of a change. But even it was a rougher year I learnt a few things and I though it be cool to share with you and it be rad if you could comment anything you may have learnt in a specific year.

1. Things aren't a straight line. Things will come all at once or not at all. Things come in all forms of way like the abstract none linear editing of Pulp Fiction, aka one of my favourite films ever. This film is also rated 18 so it just works with this whole blog post hehe.

pic credit: tumblr x 

2. Good people bring out the good in people.  Some people call it the rule of attraction. Positive people make people more positive, happy people make the saddest of people a little happier. I've known these beautiful souls for 7 years now and i'm grateful for their kind + good hearts :-)

3. love & fascination has no difference. 
I think this year was the first year I may have fallen in love with someone or appreciated someone enough to think they may appreciate and be there for me as well. But he fascinated me a lot. All love is being there for one another no matter what emotion comes up on the wheel for that day.Whether that is intimacy with one another or simply comforting someone by sitting in the same room in complete comfortable silence.
4. your loss, babe. 
dear asshole, your finally learning how the tables are turning. Just know that if I like/appreciate/love  you I will try to give you the world or whatever I can control. But if you stop giving me a reason to care you'll realize that I will get rid of an excess piece that way weighing me down whilst you lose someone who wanted to only lift you higher.
5. stop worrying about people who aren't worried about you.
"a girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her"- Marilyn Monroe.
6. Make yourself a priority. Be patient with yourself and conquer from within.
you are enough. At the end of the day, all we have is who we are, so take care of that. you decide whether you are content with the life you live not an manipulative acquaintance. Prioritize what you think will improve your well being ;whether that a life style change, like cutting out meat or focusing on that poetry book you threw aside as you tried to achieve other people expectations.Start doing stuff for yourself more and don't be like 18 year old Kon who never did.
7. Friends can break your heart too.
the biggest heart breakers of them all.
8. nostalgia is a killer.
I remember the first summer with you and I remember the second summer with you. The second was shit maybe because I was so obsessed with the first.
9."I rebel: therefore I exist"- Albert Comus.
listen to these 3 songs please (with headphones) : It Starts With Me- Stick to your Guns // Make Believe - The Used // She's a Rebel- Green day

10. naps are your holy savior at any age.
the last year of compulsory education is a mess. Both by the system and the methods given to student. I was in my college(upper high school) from 8:30-17/18:00 everyday besides Friday. In the weekends I dedicated a whole day of the weekend to the commutative 16 hours of homework it gave me from the three subjects I took. Coffee at one point didn't work on me, I became immune to the morning espresso and the midday vanilla latte & lastly the disgusting filter canteen coffee. One thing that was a more effective charge up was just a lil nap of 20-60 min.
11. Live music can heal the world for all I care.
 I am not sure if it's the live bass that reflects in the blood vessels. The way the drums play in your stomach or the vocals perform therapy sessions than any professional could. Live music is my escape, I was very privileged to go to several concerts at 18 and that's something I used to keep me going honestly.

12. my anxiety does not define me.
I have severe anxiety and have since I was 6 years old. Only at 18 have I accepted that. I've also learnt that fear of mine have killed more dreams than failure ever will. My anxiety is apart of me and I have accepted that. It has a seat with my happiness, sadness, anger, and disgust. And that's okay. Who knows maybe at one point i'll open up fully but for now know that you chose what controls you, some days and nights are going to be tough but that just makes you human. It doesn't define you.
13. apply a simple rule with people in your life strike three your out.
At 18, I gave out my forgiveness far to easily to things and concepts that don't deserve it. My feeling were always on the line and that sort of sucks. People kept hurting me and hurting me for similar reasons. I just would forgive them when in reality the wounds they have caused barely healed by the time they hurt me again.When all I ever did was try to help them as my intentions were simply to look out for them all.This year and the year onward there is a rule; strike one, i'll forgive you as that's something everyone deserves. Strike 2, I need to see improvements or no hints that I will ever get hurt again. Lastly ...the famous strike 3 you're out, strike three is a thin thread because they should of learnt better after the 2nd strike.
14. the only thing you can control is yourself, if you don't like where you are .. move you are not a tree. you know when you are content with what you have and more importantly who you are.. You decide whether or not you gave that task 100% or not.
15. Don't apologies for feeling or something or a lot.
I think our generation has developed this need to apologies for everything. If someone hurt you, that person hurt you and they have no permission to say over wise. You are a human being who will feel the color wheel of emotions and have a right to every single one of them. if you are sad, you are sad. if you are pissed, you are ready to tear a mother fucker, that how it goes and don't let anyone control your emotions.
16. spend some time alone and get to know someone- yourself.
DON'T NEGLECT YOURSELF. DON'T NEGLECT YOUR EMOTIONS, YOUR WELL BEING.

17. it's ok to be lost.
I think the most dominant feeling in my life at 18 was being lost within myself. No one gave me that feeling besides myself. But if there is something I've learnt from this is to look at it in a different mindset. It's being lost on a map inside your head rather then a black hole that you can't come out of. So no matter where you wonder you'll get to a main 'road' or concept- metaphorically speaking. Being lost is normal through the transition of being given the power to do what ever the fuck you want with yourself, after you're technically not held back by any legal concept of your parents.
18." don't belong to no city to no man"

Apologies for the lateness that is this blog post- I wanted to perfect it/ i've been in work for 13 days straight without a day off and all I do is nap and pray for a non-hectic day in the cafe, I hope this helps you maybe and ill talk to you very soon :-)

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i'm back & on a gap year.

Hello Ladies & Gentleman,

I'm back ?

I thought it is time to fire up the blog up once again; after a far too long break from something... I didn't do as much as I wanted to in the first place. I started this blog as a form of escape in the last year of my compulsory education, however little did I know how intense it will all be both physically and mentally and even emotionally sometimes. But now that is over. I'm on a gap year to focus on all the things I may have neglected whilst in school. Hopefully, this will interest you or inspire people who aren't quite sure whether to continue academics or take a lil wonder in world  for a year. My plan is to put up a more detailed gap year blog post in the future as I still have a lot to say but it's taking some time to word it all in my head and then put it on paper/type it up.

As for what to expect on this blog is .. more consistency. I have a few blog post ready to draft up my sleeve. The content will vary: fashion, travel, opinions on things, music, inspiration, YouTube videos   and all the things I've neglected in the past that I actually enjoy. It be pretty rad if I could get some requests to that way it's a little hub for us all ;-)

pic credit tumblr. 

I don't really have a post schedule quite yet as I think I want to try different things but expect 1 as the minimum per week but i'm aiming for 2-3. speak shortly & i hope you have/had an awesome dayyyyy.

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